fibrillate: (did you look like me)
Hope Carassia ([personal profile] fibrillate) wrote in [community profile] jigokufever 2022-09-06 10:20 pm (UTC)

[there is a moment, there, where leviathan is worried that nazuna is going to do something far worse. there is a moment where they want to run away, to retreat back to the safety of the ocean bed. there are moments after moments all in sequence where they realize they could pull away but their body keeps them locked in place. where they could simply elect to abandon this conversation, this friendship, if it gets too much for their heart to handle.]

[it is the safe thing to do. it is the smart thing to do.]

[they stand there, and they let nazuna kiss them, and they don't know how else to react. their heart thrums, their thoughts buzz. they watch this vampire spring away, proving every single word of what she's told them so far tonight, and their mouth hangs just slightly open. their face is red and they can feel that warmth, but as nazuna gets further away, they touch their lips with their fingertips like they can't believe what just happened. like they can't believe that they let this vampire whom they had just met, and whom they had met under the strangest of circumstances, kiss them like that. with such lucidity, too.]

[their hand falls to their side again, and it takes them a moment to remember how to walk. as they take the short journey back to their apartment, the whirring mechanical fan, the rumpled sheets, the exposed metal radiator that they'd moved their bed to be right beside, they don't realize that they already know why they stayed.]

[it's later that evening, with the haze of the sun a fading memory on the horizon, that it hits them. why they let that happen to them, and why they didn't take every opportunity they had to stop it, and what it is that they're going to end up doing next.]

[in no long period of time, they will embrace the night as the old friend that it truly is.]

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